Its been a disaster of a week! Its the drink…
The drink is a right bastard!! Ive ballsed up bigtime this week. A lot of things contributed to it. Feeling sorry for myself, fed up with the diet, trying to fix my sleep pattern and quitting the fags all played a part. Heres the calorie breakdown.
Sunday – 2050 Cal
Then I stayed up from Monday to Tuesday…
Monday & Tuesday – 3650 Cal
Wednesday – 2300 Cal
I started drinking Thursday and stopped taking notes…
Thursday – 3500-4000 Cal (Estimate)
Friday – 4000 Cal (Estimate)
Saturday – 3500-4000 Cal (Estimate)
Sunday – 1400 Cal so far.
As you can see, Thursday is when things started going tits up. I had a drink Tuesday night and smoked a couple fags, then by Thursday I was craving a smoke so bad that I started drinking! I honestly thought ‘Fuck this’ when it came to the diet and kept drinking every day until Saturday. I was feeling bored shitless here on my own and sorry for myself too. The main thing I was trying to do was fix my sleep pattern so I wasnt sleeping all day. There are better ways to do it, but this was the most fun one!
It worked, my sleep pattern is fixed now but it came at a cost. I weigh 19 St 12 again, same as I did at the start of the damn year!! Ive basically reversed all my progress of a month in 3 days… It sucks and it just shows why theres an obesity crisis. You can work hard for weeks to lose some weight and end up putting it all back on in 3 short days of eating crap and drinking.
Fuck ups will happen though so Im not beating myself up. I look like a tit too but Im posting this up so that when I do lose this weight, this week will serve as a reminder that fuck ups are ok as long as you get back at it again. It would be really bad to have a fuck up like this happen, then revert back to old ways because of it and end up weighing more than you did in the first place, and having to start over again.
Im not letting it stop me! Ive got it out of my system now anyway so I am back at the diet as of today. I will lose this weight one way or another!!